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Greetings..
There so much things happen and it happens so fast. I merely living in the moment. The one I thought will be the love of my life end up be the love of someone else's life and I've been spending time, money and effort to the wrong person. I knew this would happen in the very beginning. It's just that I think, the feel isn't strong enough to stop my conscious about it. Well, shit.
Then my long lost so called lil sis resurface from the shallow grave, giving a damn about my insta posts and call me bro once again. What was this? or that? Do I have to get thru another shitty moment and start decorating my piece of timeline with another dumb and stupid stuff like this? Like seeing my used-to-be love-life going out with someone else? Or the one that start texting out of the blue just so they can eff-ed my life one more time? How about no, I'm drowned enough and I'm really get tired of it. Could I just relax and rest for a moment and take a few breath?
At this point, I don't know what is going on with my own life. I don't know what I've been doing. I don't know what I've been up to. I don't even know if I deserved any good stuff now and then. I hope I did.
Tired, now I've so much debt. How do I gonna pay my own bill and her's while she off with the man of his choice that just take her out for a day while I'm here planning on a flight trip for her to go somewhere nice and fancy. But, the eff am I thinking? I'm not even an option. I'll never be an option. I couldn't even afford a car. To give a ride. I had nothing. I was nothing, I'm nothing. Fhew.
To that woman I've talked about. You knew who you are. I'm here. If you find yourself guilty, please help me out. Help me to always be cautious with a digger like you. Stay the eff out of my life.
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